Aerosmith - You See Me Crying

This is such a beautiful song I wish they did not put that stupid intro on there -
at least its only a few seconds long.

This song makes me want to cry and right now I am relating way to much to this.  It has been a good day that ended crappy.  There is only so much one person can handle and right now I need a kick in the ass to remember how to live instead of run.  I am not used to being alone and I still after 18 months I can't stand my days off cause I don't want to be home alone, I hate it. But at the same time I don't think I want someone here either I just need to find other people other "circles" to do things with, I move back up here to New England thinking I will have no problem finding other people to work with or classes or study or just hang out and no luck, oh damn I am being whiny on here I didn't want to do that, but damn I can't scream in silence for much longer.

Please don't get me wrong I am happy and I am very happy here, I just need some interaction with like minded people.  I want to dance under the moon again, I want to say Merry Meet or Blessed Be and not get looks like I just jumped off the crazy train.  I don't have my sense of community here I guess thats it.  I used to teach magical craft classes and all that - I need a potluck supper with a circle!

On a brighter less whiny note I finally broke down and bought a winter coat today in Littleton, I like Littleton thought I might find some witchiness there, did find a store but thats it - I think that is very strange a store on its own - not unless there are people there to buy the stuff and there are always people there, so where are you all hiding???  Oh damn I am whining again.

Lets see x-husband I think has finally got it - talk to me like a human or leave me the fuck alone, one can only be texted or e-mailed "send me a picture of your big titties" so many times before you reach your want to puke limit.  There is a reason you are my X-husband.  So that shit is over so that is good.  Got a coat that is good, talked to an old friend today another good, dropped my huge bowl of homemade pasta salad all over the floor that was not so good, LOL.  Oh and ate Cracker Jacks and drank Coffee only thing missing is the Lucky Charms.  (ok some of you might not get that - but I do and it makes me smile a big huge smile),  so maybe it was not all that bad a day.

I did drive all the way to The Green House to go to Open Mike night and there were no seats and I was not standing in a bar all night by myself - sitting would have been fine but not standing.  That did kinda suck cause I had to turn around and drive all the way back, but what the hell my car is great on gas.  I have had it for 3 months and only had to put gas in it 3 times so far and I drive all over these mountains and drive down to Nashua too (thats a couple hours - but they have a Trader Joes' and my brother)

Oh hell I just need someone to go get a cup of coffee with!
Dunkins' anyone?  Damn to late they are closed already!

The Life of the Witch

I Love this one! It makes me feel very strong and empowered!

And most importantly it makes me feel at peace!

The Power from with in

From beneath me arises the energy of the Earth, my home and my foundation.

From above me pours down the light of the Sun and the enchanting Moon.

To my right hand flows the strength to control and direct, the power of magic.

To my left hand comes the skill to divine and to heal, the source of blessing.

Think about it!!

Witchcraft, like any science or philosophical system, must be approached from a liberal point of view. When looked at objectively, we see that Witchcraft is just another theoretical body of knowledge. It is a process, not a person. Therefore it is neutral, incapable of being either good or evil. Like all belief systems, Witchcraft is only as good or evil as the people using it.

LADY SABRINA

Happy Mabon!

"Lady,
In swirling cloak of crimson,
of burnt orange and saffron,
You ride the winds of morning.
The scent of burning leaves fills the air;
the Second Harvest draws near.
Solitary once again You embody balance -
You are an archetype of the Self -
consummate, remote.
I long to follow as You seek the
formless wilderness
with never a thought to the cost.
You are the bright flame of morning,
impelling and unrestrained.
Bless me with Your passion."
-  Galen Gillotte

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"Leaves fall,the days grow cold.

The Goddess pulls her mantle of Earth around Her

as You, O Great Sun God, sail toward the West

to the land of eternal enchantment,

wrapped in the coolness of night.

Fruits ripen,seeds drip,

the hours of day and night are balanced."

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"O Autumn, laden with fruit, and stained
With the blood of the grape, pass not, but sit

Beneath my shady roof, there thou may'st rest,
And tune thy jolly voice to my fresh pipe;
And all the daughters of the year shall dance,
Sing now the lusty song of fruits and flowers. "-   William Blake

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"The Wheel turns on - 'tis Mabon-tide.
Dawn and dusk abreast now ride
darkness, brightness, calm and storms.
The hand that holds the scythe transforms.
I vow this wisdom shall be my own:
poise will let my power be known.
From balance the Wheel now turns toward the deep.
Through Winter, by vow and faith, I'll keep."Ashleen O'Gaea

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Enjoy this the second harvest of that which you have sewn throughout the year!

Prepare and nurture the same for the third and final harvest in October.

Always remember we do reap all that we sow.

We are responsible for ALL that we sow!

Daizi

Good Morning - well my morning anyway!

Morning around here is Coffee, computer, Cat Stevens (today, it was Kate Bush yesterday), Postcards and Yoga.

And my damn coffee is cold, I am soooo procrastinating this morning.  I need to write my postcards to my aunt, it makes her very happy to get a few postcards everyday from me and I only got one sent last week cause I was moving all my stuff around now I have to make up for it!!  I don't feel like it right now!

I have to leave for work in an hour and a half, I have not even done my Yoga for the morning!  Bad Me!  Got to go get some hot coffee!

Need to check out The Unknown Death Crones (not unknown to me  LOL- luv ya Nix) blog since I posted a reply on there bitching about the organization of Wicca might have started a witch war, oops!  And why does everyone ASSUME you are Wiccan if you believe/worship a Goddess/Moon, that has always bothered me.  I am not Wiccan, I do agree with many of their beliefs but not all, and I have issues with the duality and that is a huge part of Wiccan so don't call me Wiccan, please!!  ARG - get off soapbox its to early for this!  ok back to hot coffee and Yoga - this is not the best combination either.  I think I will finish this discussion later tonight when I get out of work!

Ok rambled on enough  now I have to get going running very late this morning!