Another update

Update - still working

Why do I love otters so much? My mummer did too.

Base lines of todays work

Still working but I think my muse may be full of the typical let downs and bs. But we will see and hell right now we are just friends 3000 miles apart so whatever. Anyway I don't really care cause he brought back parts of me that chris destroyed. When you beat a womans body for years you beat her mind, bruises and broken bones heal so much faster than the mind. Totally thinking of actually making that webpage you talked about Nikki or a varient of it! Ok time to get back to this fatboy - yeah I always had a thing about drawing and painting otters it started when I was about 12.

Tom Petty-The Wild One, Forever

There was at one time in my life a point where I felt every emotion in the words and music of this song, why did I loose that? I feel like I lost my ability to feel love or maybe the ability to find love or let love find me. No I haven't given up but i want to feel something again. Yes I did recently get my art back but now I want more I want (yes I am being greedy) I want all of me back I want to be loved I want to wake up with someone that loves me laying on the pillow next to me and I want to bring them coffee in bed and know that I am safe in their arms.

Wholeness

Worked on this more today

Lots more work to do on this!

Gifts given Unknown

Into what was once a gloomy patch of ocean some sunshine poked through, corals bright red hues came back schools of brilliant yellow tang returned the oceans floor began to blossom with indigo and magenta as it had before so very long ago, the ocean only hopes to hold and embrace the warmth of the soft sunshine but until then the ocean she will grow and flurrish as she basks in the gentle rays of the gift that is sunshine