hmmm I think my page has been hijacked - I might have to fix that

New art finally

Hmmm

I am thinking a change in direction,  I have been trying to pay down all my debt so I can buy something here but now I may have an alternative plan for down the road, I find myself constantly having artist block here and my work when I do get something done is just not of the same quality.   There is no motivation here.  Any suggestions? Most fun I have had and the first time I felt like myself again was when I went to North Hampton MA thing I need to make a few day trips out there when the snow is gone.   Not talking about doing anything soon at all just an idea,  there are no like minded people here it gets lonely need someone to talk to and work with.  Art art art.

Under the Guise of Time

Under the Guise of Times

part 1

Minds full of war and strife

Battle lines of the mind tangled

Anger and rage - lifes dreams abandoned

Leave and left behind all of life

Heart and soul ruined, left and strangled

To survive, all and everything unhanded

Time- evil monster I'm no longer your wife

Your evil twisted my mind - Horrors entangled

All of what was my life gone - left stranded

part 2

Like a Phoenix risen from the ashes longing for life

Avoided questions and answers from the foolish masses

Comfort only seems to come in random glimpses

Who am I now? memories of self only cause tears

Mind twisted bruised lasting scars

Don't know myself, lost myself, lost the moon and stars

For that I have shame

Shame shame shame - shame on you

Shame - you have no shame

Shameless

Best line from Shameless for today (the real show not the american copy but the real show from Briton (its much better))

 Depressing thought #267 Everything you know is wrong, but you know what fuck em,  fuck all those bad thoughts, because this is happy thought #1 I will be back!

Now this is awesomeness

Arlo Guthrie

Awesomeness

Carl Sagan - 'A Glorious Dawn'

I just love this and I am not even sure why.  Well it is all fact.
 I think that I snagged this from the "Thinking Atheist"

Edgar Allan Poe and Stevie Nicks

 I thought after a night at the theater for a live reading of Poe and boy did the actor look like Poe, it was creepy as Poe should be, any way I thought I would post this. 

More stupid women, your making us all look bad!

I am not really an educated woman, I have a few college credits in veterinary med and some in pharma but not enough to amount to anything, money and medical issues stood far to strong in the road for all that.  But I am smart enough to know that my individual actions do affect others, and I also realize that things I do as an individual also reflect on other women as a whole.

Now this blog certainly was not set up to dis women as that would be pretty stupid since I am a women but are we just getting more ignorant as the years go by?

 Because I am sure that my grandmother did not fight for women's rights to give some stranger you just met head in the front of your husbands truck for the world to see !

If some of us would stop acting so blatantly stupid we might actually get  some of the respect that our grandmothers and mothers worked so hard for.

An realize that the guy could care less about you, he is just going to get up in the morning and go to work and brag about it because that is in fact how I heard about it.

 
Now I am in no way trying to be the morality police but damn right there for everyone to see and not that it would be an excuse but you were nor even drunk.   I totally believe in live and let live but where is the line  drawn on your self respect meter? 


And really its not ok to cheat, its very hurtful.   I couldn't ever do it I would be totally ashamed of myself and guilt ridden and the pain it would cause to the innocent party would not ever be worth it to me. 

OK enough bitching for one night but come on, really.

The Lunacy of women - this is not high school anymore!

Women that make the rest of us look bad!!  Arg!  Sorry have to do a little recap here.... So I have an x that was not very nice all of the time and apparently continued this behavior with the new girl friend (as stated by her) About 2 years ago she started harassing me with emails, text messages and phone calls for weeks, one day I was driving and my phone rang and without thinking I answered the phone, it was her, I figured to late now so I answered her questions and told her what was done to me blah blah blah.  I was left alone for a few days then harassed again asking me to send her pictures.  What kind of woman asks that, anyway I refused to do that, that was just sick.  I believe I probably posted about the whole thing on here at the time, I will look for it to reference the craziness.
 Now its been a while I think 2 years all has been calm, nothing from her at all.  I had refused to change my number because I had done it way to many times.  So nothing all this time well that changed, here we go again.

What the hell if you know your man is contacting other women get a grip he is not honest with you about your relationship and your not honest with yourself or just stupid.  Do Not contact his ex-wives and girlfriends to harass them.  They are not the problem or issue and at this point neither is the man!!  After all this time you know that this is the way this man is and this is what he does however wrong it is, you are the issue now - that is him if you don't like it get out, move on, wake up and get a life.  Put on your big girl panties and be a god damn adult not a 15 year old who just saw her crush kiss another little girl.  He is not going to change leave these other women alone they already grew up and out its your turn.


Women who behave like this are the women that give us all a bad name.  We do not need more women running around acting so foolishly, we need more women who learn and grow, strong women with strong minds.  Women who behave this way are sending us all backwards. 

 And another thing to think about........ you left your husband to be with this man I believe this is called KARMA.  Another thing that makes us all look bad, Moral Check please! Time to grow a spine either deal with him calling and texting/sexting other women, and the other abuse or move the fuck on like the rest of us big girls!  And stop making other women relive this shit because you choose to accept this petty phone shit the other crap is much worse.  Maybe these women do not want to be contacted and now they are being harassed by both parties.  I was stupid and stuck around for black eyes, giant hidden bruises and cracked cheek bones then one day I was almost killed I yanked up those big girl panties and kicked his ass out of MY house (still had to move across the country in the end to feel safe), I was not warned, was 2000 miles from any family and had vast medical issues you were warned, have family and friends there and are not dealing with medical issues, be thankful for these things they are gifts they will help you out.  Harassing the women that survived and moved on is like slapping us all in the face.  All women not just the ones that he is talking to, this world needs more strong women not juvenile ones.

Women are sometimes their own worst enemies!

Love shouldn't hurt!

Women need to work together to stop domestic violence not against each other!!

A song to go with my Moments post!

Moments

Life is far to wasted on the past and future, what was or could be!  Living your life for another time, a later time or for an end time is simply not living.

Life is made up of moments and these moments are what is important.  Live for the moment you are in right now as that is the one that is important the ONLY one, there is nothing before or after this moment, when it ends it is no more,  gone , lost in time its not coming back.  So live this very moment as it is the only one that you have for it very well could be your last.

Don't live your life held back & restrained by another human or any gods, don't give in to their need for power & control over you. Don't surrender your moments so easily, they belong to you!

Alan Watts: This Is IT: Become What You Are

Tattoo Bodhisattva

This is going on my back and the water will flow down into the otters making a full back piece.  All that is needed of this is just the color added to the Bodhisattva and the the water flowing in to the otters on my hips and lower back - Art people take care of each other through art!!

Got to go to one of these!

Lebowski Fest

Pearl Jam - Wishlist (Kiwi!)

arg! well maybe I think or maybe not lol,  yoga then working on a new painting!

Hmmmm life is so strange

Nothing to say at the moment but I believe something might be up.



UPDATE   = And something was up went back to the old job and I am much happier!  I just must be one of those people that just likes to work their ass off.  lol  I have less time to get things done but I am happy and that is all that matters!!

I Want This